Forgive Me

Give up. I give in
How did this horror life begin?
I’ve lost my way again.
I’m losing myself again.

So I scribble down my sins.
As if the vacant paper can forgive me.
I’m begging for forgiveness, pleading if you will.
The answering silence is deafening.

I’ve let the monster consume me.
I’m more demon than human now.
I wade through the blood of the innocents I’ve slaughtered.
Forgive me.

We butcher our way through my life.
We cut throats and break hearts.
I am hate, malice and self loathing.
The road to hell is paved in gold.

This life surrounds me in the dark and macabre.
Suffocating almost.
Bound, gagged and tortured.
I suffer for all of my wrong doings.

Forgive me for my worldly sins.