You Never Know

You never know what’s around the bend.
One minute you’re a perfect picture of happiness.
The next you could be laying in a pool of blood.
The world is c r u e l a n d u g l y.

I never know what tomorrow holds.
Maybe I’ll be happy again.
I’ll fly around the world at the speed of light.
I’ll love you all, and myself.

God only knows how I’ll be tonight.
I could be this monster again.
S i c k, t w i s t e d and s e l f l o a t h i n g.
Bella and I are the perfect team.

I wonder what life will be like at the weekend.
Will I be drowning in misery,
Deafened by her screams?
Or light, loving and happy?

My life is an unpredictable car crash.
Days go by in a blur of pills and cigarette smoke.
Never knowing who I’m going to hurt with my lows,
Or who I’ll irritate with my highs.