Sinner

I’m broken, I’ve come undone again.
My skin fraying at the edge of my best friend.
So I bleed from the inside out through my wrist.
My outside finally reflecting the inside,
Gaping and bleeding.

I’m guilty of this sin.
I disappoint everyone that I’ve ever known.
I’m hurting all the people I love.
When I only want to hurt myself.

I don’t deserve love.
I haven’t earned your respect.
I’m dirt in your mouth,
Salt in the wounds I’ve cut into you.

I’m broken, I keep coming undone.
I sew myself up time and time again.
But I keep bursting open.
I try not to give up.

I’m weak.
Sick of trying
Weary of the disappointment when I fail.
I’m your biggest failure darling.

But still you love me?
Even though I keep hurting you,
Keep running you through with my diseased blade.
I’m waiting on you running.